Can I vent?-
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Creature[OP]
19.03.2021 19:47
LinkCan I vent or will I just make someone mad?-
Creature[OP]
19.03.2021 20:07
Linke it's so long sorry-
Don’t tell me I don’t care or that I should just try harder, I care more than anyone can see, in fact I’ve been told so many times that I “just don’t care” that I’ve started saying it myself a lot, If I’m mad or someones telling me to do something I don’t want too I’ll say “I don’t care!” when in reality that’s usually the only thing I can think about, the only thing I CARE ABOUT, I can be freaking out about it inside and look so calm and still outside then scream I don’t care because it’s all I ever hear, just because I don’t always look i’m trying or like I care doesn’t actually mean I don’t..
I have ADD and anxiety so I tend to overcomplicate things in my head, and have a brain that’s too say the least not exactly average, even the simplest things feel like torture too me, so of course I care, of course I think about everything, heck I think about it so much that sometimes I don’t get to doing it, I just think about doing it for a long time...
And for goodness sake I feel I try harder than anyone else around me but can never seem to accomplish as much as my peers, and telling me to try harder makes me feel worthless and dumb, because even though I’m trying my hardest, I keep trying to work harder, pushing and pushing till’ I reach my limits, I CAN’T TRY HARDER STOP TELLING ME TOO.
For goodness sake, you can’t just say I’m not trying, you have no idea what goes on in my head.
I know u care and I’m sure you try your hardest, I don’t know how to make you feel better then me understanding you
I know it doesn't help much, but try to remember that your only goals are the ones you set for yourself
dont compare yourself to others