Im going to try and loose weight because I feel fat and just UGLY,I dont feel pretty at all, like Im insecure about my acne and I just dont feel comfortable in my own skin. I honestly dont know who I am anymore like am I a girl or boy? Who am I supposed to be? What am I supposed to do?Its so hard and I just dont know anymore and then my heart was crushed when I found out my crush was Asexual so that really hurt and then im dealing with bullying and im so close to lashing out and just snapping, its hanging on by a thread. My life just is chaotic I feel really...crazy I guess? It feels like im loosing my mental stability...At least I have my journal..right? Ive always had a traumatic life I guess...my mom gave birth at 17..her getting addicted to drugs..my dad doing and dealing drugs also having no father..Lets move off of the dark stuff! So uh yeah...