the title is the begining of this "magical" story SO we were in athletacs with the boys and we didnt know we wernt supposed to be so (OH Also this kinda mintions self harm so if u dont like that dont read) anyway we all headed to locker room when we were told we were not having a free day :,) so time skip we are now out side at the front of the school running we have a thing where at the front is the parking lot I think to the left? there are a bunch of rocks and stuff + a AG barn and a gate to the busses so i got left behing (agin) and i thought of my grandpa if you did not know my grandpa passed a couple month's ago it still makes me sad I ended up crying bc of his passsing plus my ankle hurt and i havnt really been sleeping for a while so yee i was also tired i cryed as a girl named avery came to me and walked back to the junior high gym when Finn,bri, and maci saw i was sad the asked what was wrong bc man i think i was still crying or they saw that i WAS crying and at first i said i w

- i was fine but i ended up telling them what happend and that i was not getting sleep bc of it and maci asked me if i wanted a hug and gave me one then bri (breadstick) gave me one then finn gave me one. they made me feel better

i diddnt tell them 2 things that was also making me sad tho i was always being left behind and no one seemed to care and #2 my ankle + i was trying to starve myself. so

but if u guys see this then i want to say thinks for being there for me

also another self harm thingy ^^' i kinda told avery that lossing my grandpa was why i wanted to kill myself i remember someone saying "your a big thing oof sunshine" and shook my head no and they were kike"yes you are

but the killing my self part was what she thought was a joke until i told her i was being serious

its fine rlly im doing better besides thats fine

i was trying too but you run rlly fast :,)

im like fast with spritting but SUPER slow with jogging

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