I d****inj hate myself. I believe anything I'm such an idioti am about to ghost everyone my j don't know who to believe and its not making my loss of grip of reality any fucming better I feel so ****ing far away and not real and my therapist says it's like nothing she just says I'm smart or something stupid this isn't being ****ing smart I'm suffering and my life is being ruined

My "reality" if not even ****ing real its all fake and falling apart

I fucmijg hate everything so much why why does this happen to me I've always tried my best to be a nice person to help alsways and fix everything why is nothing going right

My wrists look like mfing red barcodes and how none of my family members know about this is crazy. I accidentally wore short sleeves into the kitchen and 2 people were in there. Guess they didn't see it, but I'd rather them not know anyway

I don't really have the urge to relapse RN which is good ig. Im going to bed.

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