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Taboo-Lagoon 
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02.04.2020
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Taboo-Lagoon[OP]
02.04.2020 01:34
LinkIt's like a punch in the gut.
Why'd you say it?
You don't think it hurts?
Don't touch a fresh bruise
And don't pick a fresh scab.
All you'll get is bloody fingers.
It still hurts.
Or does it?
I don't know.
I can't feel anything anymore.
Could I ever?
All I feel is...
What is this?
Stop.
Make it stop.
No don't stop.
Keep it coming.
What do I want?
I wish I could tell you.
But you wouldn't understand.
Not good enough.
Why can't I let go?
It's over and I know it.
Let.
Him.
Go.
No, I won't.
I still care.
Then care in peace.
Quit being a nuisance.
I can't help it.
You can't.
I just want to be free again.
One knife.
One gun.
One rope.
One jump.
It's so easy, yet so hard.
Just choose one for me.
Please.
Knock Knock, this is your inner demons' speaking. We have a few things to tell you.
Tyler (fear)- You're not good enough and you never will be.
Reed (anxiety)- You can't do anything to fix it
Forett (depression)- You should die, it's the best way to fix it.
Skie (loneliness)- No one loves you.
Brekk (insanity)- You can hear us. You can see us.
Girret (paranoid)- They're all out to get you.
and last but not least, a message from me.
Keltao (hope)- One more day could be the difference.
iNSaNiTY
The weight of the air is torture
PSYCHoPaTHY
Don't know who I am anymore
iNSaNiTY
The illusion of ignorance
CaPTiViTY
Why don't you take a chance?
Hope keeps all the others pressed against me. He keeps me from dying. He keeps it all on my shoulders.
One line for lying
One line for loving
One line for caring
One line for covering
One line for causing pain
One line for being pain
One line for fun
Are we done?
One more for stupidity
And another for hiding
One for pushing them away
Another for trying to let them in
Three for a chain
And a fourth for good measure
How many is that?
Let's add more.
Note to self: use this for all your vents. No one can see it. Keep it trapped inside like you always do. It's better for them.
Reed- No you loser, you can't tell them.
Tyler- They'll use you for it
Reed- Exactly!
Keltao- It's okay, let it out
Stars. The stars have it so much easier. People and animals, souls who have passed on for a bad reason leave to live in the stars. I want to be it there. I want to be a star. I want to drown, to burn, to fly off a cliff and crash, fall into the depths of my own hell and become a star.
I guess it’s just attention seeking; I guess there’s nothing wrong. But there something not right. I feel it. The stars are warning me, or maybe they’re calling me home. Home. I miss home. Can’t I be a star again?
And I know it’s not me... or is it? How did I die again? The last thing I remember was choking. Was it a rope? Water? It was my fault. I’m the star who slipped. I’m the star who keeps coming back because she keeps killing herself.
Bang
Bang
Bang.
Ember. Is that my name? What was it before? I had another name. Apollo. I was Apollo. Crash and burn Apollo. I remember it. I was so sorry to leave them; to leave him. He just wasn’t right for me. None of them were. Was it a dream? Or did I kill them all?
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I feel the scars burning again. They’re telling me not to think this far back. I’m not supposed to remember this much. But I know. I know things I shouldn’t know. I know I’m likely to die. I know why I know things I’ve never learned. I know history before history. I know why I talk to myself. I know why I cry myself to sleep.
I know
I know
I know.
Too much for such a small person. Am I a person? Is this all a dream? The butterfly. It came. I saw it. And I tried to show them. But is disappeared. Right before my eyes. This life isn’t real. When we die, we become the real us. Stars.
Breathe child. Breathe little star. But I can’t, can I? Everything costs something, and the price of the air is too much. I can’t breathe. It’s not allowed. Stars don’t breathe. They just exist. How? Where am I again? I’ve gone too far into my mind.
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I feel my arms weaken. Is it time to go home? Let me say goodbye first. Or maybe I shouldn’t. I shouldn’t cause more pain. My mind races, my heart slows it’s beats.
Pitter patter.
I can hold on a few more minutes, but the glow in my eyes is becoming brighter. Stars welcome me. I welcome them as well.
I know I’m scaring you away. But maybe it’s for the best. You shouldn’t be around when a star explodes. It’s dangerous.
My inner Star is speaking. Maybe it’s time to let go. I wonder, as my Star is on the outside, how much of me is breaking inside. It’s okay, it’ll be over soon.
Wow and it’s back. I thought I was fine. But nope. I want to die. That’s all this is. I won’t make it long. I want to slit my throat or put a gun to my head. I just want it to be gone. They won’t care. Ever. Forett agreed. He’s my dude. He said it’s best. For me. To leave.