I Will Speak
10 comments
EsTanaEsTana[OP]
04.09.2020 04:33
LinkI can't get rid of this pressure that is on my chest and shoulders and mostly heart. I will sound kinda cheesy but just hear me out.
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EsTanaEsTana[OP]
04.09.2020 04:41
LinkWhen I was 18 months old, I was diagnosed with high-functioning autism. My mom told me I had it when I was 11 and I was, well, pretty proud. On every social media, I wanted everybody know that I had autism and wanted support. As I type, I am shaking and can't tell you how much fear I am in. When I get a response saying, "stop using autism as a exuse", I just don't like it and they need to stop. When @DrawingBunneh said women need to be slaves, and they need to be servants and all that crap, I don't like it. It is wrong to joke like that and can seriously hurt someone. Like how he did to me. It is very wrong. I know it's the internet and i will get hate but just please. I asked to stop and I was ignored. I first brought it up because it was hard to take it as a joke and I will have trouble understand. But mostly, it is very wrong to assume something about someone if you don't know them. No one knows me personally and it is wrong to say I don't have autism. I have autism and it cannot be changed. --
EsTanaEsTana[OP]
04.09.2020 04:49
LinkNot understanding and connecting stuff and truoble with communication is a part of autism. @DrawingBunneh said fine you have autism but I know he didn't meant it. All I wanted was support and I got nothing. I said sorry but nothing in return. What you did could've had killed me. I had saw your post ssayinb " EsTanaEsTana failing to die". Now that was a death threat. I will not die because of you but because of a reason! Do not joke around the wrong thing or else it can have a bad affect on you! The person who had made those awfully accouns purposely put my username in it, DO NOT follow me! Please! I don't deserve those and I earn the follows by doing animations and posts, commenting and doing.. whatever! It was wrong of what you had done and the things that I had done, the threat, and in I don't remember some. But agian. Be careful about what you post and keep your thoughts to your self! Before posting or saying anything, think what affect can have on you and other people. Think before you act. Now. ---
EsTanaEsTana[OP]
04.09.2020 04:55
LinkNow I want to get through this and I want support. Just please. I am scared and shaking in fear. Know me personally to know the truth. No mean or rude comments or I will delete it. I wanted to talk so I can relieve pressure and so I don't shake anymore in fear. @DrawingBunneh, don't ever do that agian. Don't come to my account ever, don't say anything about me, ever, and, NEVER, assume something if you don't know the truth. Same goes to everyone else. Now I want y'all to listen to the voice in your head when reading this and realise what you have to me. Others, just don't make the mistake he had done. Just support of do nothing. But I need help. I need therapy. I need support. I am getting nothing and I don't need nothing. I care for myself, you and, well, @DrawingBunneh. But do not ever make the same mistake that he done and some mistakes that I had dont. Please. And uh... I hope I am happy after this. ( I hope )
EsTanaEsTana[OP]
04.09.2020 05:14
LinkTyping this really helped me
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EsTanaEsTana[OP]
05.11.2021 21:04
LinkWoah reading this after almost a year rlly did help me...
It's good you're standing up for yourself! I've never met anyone with autism, but I know they have a rough life. I think it is great you are trying to explain to people how they make you feel!
I know I'm a teensy bit too late, but I want you to know I support you too. I'm friends with someone who has autism and it hasn't stopped her from doing the things she wants to, so I'll support your ambitions too. And, I don't exactly know what this whole drawing bunny situation is, but that's not okay in my book. I just want you to know that I've got your back. :)