I want to get this shit off my chest after realising the the sad and the truth. 1. I find it not normal for me not being treated like utter shit. Usually, well for like my entire life, everyone has always treated me like utter shit. And I've always found it to be a normal thing. 2. The reason why I lack affection is because due to me being treated like utter shit in the past and has never been through much affection. After all of that, I literally reject affection. Every time someone shows affection towards me I always just, run away from it. I don't trust anybody anymore, I am the most isolated person you could meet. I never try to make friends, even if people walk up to me for friendship I would turn them down or just avoid them. Okay night y'all.