me or my self esteem* also if we're close and I know you're keeping a secret that makes me feel 5x worse because I trust you and I've had my trust broken a lot of times by people I love (platonic and not) because they /were/ keeping secrets from me or trying to because I found out something

sometimes it's with people I barely know too like someone asking a user for a private anim to talk on or something I get wrongfully paranoid and anxious vrr I've had to like shut myself off from some people close to me because I'd just see them hanging out with their cooler friends and I get scared they're plotting against me or laughing at me behind my back and it got so bad I would always sorta be snippy at them or play the victim card and make them feel guilty about not inviting me in on the fun when they are in no way obligated to do so

I hope to those people I've become less toxic and possessive, really I didn't intend to ramble/vent this much about it so I'll cut it here, but yea fun fact ig

I sorta like people aren't paying attention to this but at the same time I don't