(hugs) It's okay, people are here for you. I know all of this is gonna sound really cliche, but it's true. One of my friends tried to kill herself when I was only nine, so many people I care about have died, I've been fighting depression and suicidal thoughts since I was ten, and I'm only eleven now. I know how it feels for people to be taken from you and the sadness you feel after it. I want to help, and so many other people do, too. I'm not going to lie and say it will get better, because you might feel better one day, you will make it t a point where you can smile again, but you will still have that moment of intense sadness in your heart. You might push it down, try and forget about it, but you never will be able to. It will stick with you, that guilt, those tears, it will stay with you for the rest of your life, but also Like i said, you will be able to smile again one day. In the future, you will feel better, you will be able to smile and laugh, you will move past it. You are a strong person.

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Words cannot express how we care for you, and how badly I want to help. There aren't words I can say that will help. But just know, I'm here if you need me, and I wish you well.

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