I have to just stop being friends with this special person. Because they are very busy. I respect that but I just don't think I our friendship is strong enough. I don't want to do it. But I have to say it, I don't want to be friends anymore because I'm hurt still. You saved my life just by knowing me. I almost k*lled myself. I love you the most. Even though I got friendzoned by you, even though your busy, even though im weird, even though im still waiting for you to say something first to me, Even though im someone else.. I make so many mistakes I just want to be with you but you want to be with someone else.. I respect that but It makes me think I'm boring. I'm upset at myself. This is why I hate myself. thats why Im not gonna be your friend so I don't have to worry about you every single day waiting even though I waste most of my time.