Annnnddddd as per usual when I have something that I am serious about no one cares... The things I wrote in the previous post are me actually being serious and showing my actual emotion.. I say im "good" as a reply to people asking how I am for a reason. Because I dont want people to worry, i barely know anyone here and everyone here is technically a stranger to me since its online.. I dont know anyone.. Im out of my comfort zone.. I dont care anymore.. I just want people to know that im not the "happy" scarlet i play out to be, in dont feel happiness, I dont show sadness, I feel neutral and stressed towards everything about the fact that for some freaking reson im so drawn to this site I cant even bring myself to make a post about taking a break because I dont like taking breaks because it just makes me feel worse.. And now this just turned tminto a slight vent, I appologize, I'm going to go back to being silent