car crash, drowning or some other way. i don't wanna decide myself. i don't have a choice on how i should act or feel anymore. people critique my personality now. "why do you always have to be such a *****?" and "you're too boring" is always in the back of my head. "you're too sensitive" "attention seeker" god. what the **** am i supposed to be like anyway? i don't wanna do anything now. it's seen as boring or repetitive.