I can't take this anymore it genuinely hurts to think about she's gone he's gone they all hate me everyone in this room wants me dead please please oh god

I sprained my wrist and I have to keep working I feel pushed over my limit I'll snap any second and they'll hate me more

I want to put myself in a coma. It's easier than school I don't want to see them again they'll make fun of me they'll all hurt me they'll hurt me they'll hurt me

They're always watching me. No matter what I do please help oh my ****ing God help

I'm overwhelmed as hell I'm at band camp and school start tomorrow and I keep thinking of someone but he's gone and she won't talk to me and she never will again and I feel like I'd be better off gone I want to run away or stand in the middle of a road somewhere I won't be found for a good while I don't know what to do

Deas guy and friend she stopped talking to me because of the dead guy because I joked even though she knew damn well I tended to joke when dealing with shit I went "too far" or whatever

I did stop that's the thing I stopped a while ago but she won't even look at me at this point she won't even try to see that I'm not as shitty as I made myself