I understand the way you feel but to get whispers from behind your back then see that people vare is something that helps me from trying to fight someone
If I was an extrovert I'd probably bash my own skull into a wall and cry...... because I'd make a fool of myself outside of my friend circle and then get even more talk going
I mean, I knew a kid who never talked once in school for like, 6 years then he picked up on art and magic tricks etc. and did the funniest shit around everyone because he knew dark humor well enough. If it's offensive enough its funny and relatable