why am I so ****ing stupid I broke the only thing I can draw on and I just got it a year ago Im so ****ing stupid I never take care of anything I broke the one before it too. I am so pissed I hate myself why cant I take care of one ****ing thing now I cant draw or play barely anything because the screen is so glitched out I can barely ****ign type **** I kiterally am so mad at myself Imso ****ind stupid WHY why cant I just take care of something for once I cant even care for a damn cactus and that shit doesn't even need water everyday Im just too caught up in my own shit Im not even aware of what im doing and I wreck shit FGUCK

my spoiled brat ass really thought I would get a new one this year I dont ****ing deserve shit

why am I so stupid **** I never learn

My brother has his old one and my step brother has one he barely uses and I tried asking if I could have one. I know it sounds selfish but i get so bored without something to do and I over think and have episodes over and over and its stupid I need to rely on electronics to keep myself stable but I dont have artblock anymore after a year and I just want to draw

my brother said I couldn't have his old one and he wouldn't even let me touch it. My step brother said I couldn't have his which I understand but he doesn't use it.

I sound so selfish right now I just want to draw I thought oh maybe I will get a new one for Christmas because my mom hinted at it but no she was just lying to me

Life isn't fair I guess and I don't deserve shit. Anyways Im going to stop crying like a baby and try to figure something out even though I have no idea what to do at all

I don't know what to do. If only I wasn't so stupid and didn't **** up my screen none of this would even be a problem

I dont know what to do