So today my dad got mad at me and we were talking about why I feel like I want to die and he told me this * you are getting to that age where the hormones kick in and when that comes you start to think about sex and you think it feels so good and then you gat sad mad and happy and other emotions* and he said more stuff about emo's and stuff and I just cried and hid my face and why I was crying is cuz when he is away I look up "things" and he doesn't know about it and hate myself I get turned on easily and I hate it and when I stop it's like I was a whole different person and I still sleep with my dad I know its weird but I'm scared ok I somtimes think he has a boner and I dont want that so I woke up one night and I saw somthing and every night i..I ok i..I'm a leav