Trying to ****ing sleep and she starts yelling at me and giving me an attitude i swear to god bro i didnt get any sleep last night im genuinely so pissed

Omg and she just traumadumps and vents to me and when i say "ok" she gets all mad at me like what the hell do you want me to say every time in honest you act like in attackibg you and when i trued to help and told her she could get therapy she goes on this whole tangent about shed too busy taking care of everyone else like me to care about herself like ok whatever mam

And she keeps using thingd that ive said YEARS ago against me and saying im always attacking her and ganging up on her with my step sister like hey have you ever considered that maybe you are wrong and thats why we are standing against you 😳

She treats me like my life is so easy and that her life id hell on earth and that im an ungrateful brat who hates her like oh . My. ****ing gof. I DONT THINK THAT WAY OF YOU. "Well thats how i feel" OK????? so can you stop trying to make me into thr person you "feel" in your head and actually listen to me????

She thinks everything is a personal ****ing attack on her and her feelings its genuinelu so difficult to deal with. And then when i say i feel like she doesnt care about me (said this years ago yet she brings it up like i say it everyday) she geys super pissed and starts telling me to be grateful and tells me everything she does for ke amd how hard her life is because of it like it makes me feel like a ****ing chore and not a "daughter" to a mother

I feel like such a burden and then she wonders why i just tell everyone im fine instead of seeking help I thought i escaped this by leaving my dads side of the family but its still here every ****ing day, always feelinh like every little ask is like a ten ton boulder crushing my mom because of me. She doesnt even know how much harder ive been trying to be a better "daughter" becaude i do try. Im not just a angsty teen who wants to go against authority just because i hate them. Everyone takes me for some ****ing retarded joke and it really pisses me off

If i tried to tell my mom what's she is doing to me she will just turn it around and make it about herself and continue blaming me. Im so tired i dont know what to do. Ive always held her high in my mind because she saved me from my dad but she isn't a good person either. I used to think she was the best person ever and i loved her so much even despite everything, id always push my feelings away and tell myself i am selfish. I cant do that anymore. Im so so tired of pretending

Ny step dad saying hes gonna throw my phone down the dtairs brb lol!

I dont think i ask for much. Because i KNOW how much i already cost due to all of my medical bills. I know how much of a damn chore i am. I know how much work i am. But my parents dont even respect me, they do not see me as an equal to them. So they can just do whatever and say whatever they want to me because theyre older and they know better. Not to mention how much i was neglected by my mom and step dad as a kid so i found some messed up shit on the internet when i wanted to go outside and play at the playground but they wouldnt bring me or my siblings because they were "busy". Then they got mad at me for seeing inappropriate content online snd then did nothing about it. I was probably 8 when i first discovered that one website you probably know ehat i mean. Reflecting on all of this makes me realize how much my life hasnt changed. Even still today my step dad and my mom will ***** and moan when i ask them to drive me somewhere and then get mad when i dont go out more.