ik and im no help im sorry

*hugs*

no im terrible i dont understand y im on this earth....im sorry *hug*

yea but i dont deserve it

if this ends in goodbye then pls just remember that ur the best mom i had and that u made life just a little easier and i couldnt be more greatful for u i hope i stick around but grizzly's speaking loud idk if i can hold him down

grizzly wont stay quiet he keeps yelling he wont leave me alone he keeps telling me im to scared to do it and that ill never be enough (grizzly is like an alter personality that i have and ive never been able to get rid of him)

i dont find this so lucky when he keeps pushing mom he wont leave me alone

the thing is is pookie is gonna get tired and let his gaurd down then grizzly can take over im scared i dont want to die i dont want him to take over i have no control when he takes over.....im scared i wanna see E but i cant until tonight or tmrw or when ever we get online together

well just know that ur the best FA mother out there