That makes no sense Can I find a middle ground..

As much as I like being alone I think too much when I am I like being around people, especially people like them I don’t think at all when I’m with them It all shuts down and it’s so much easier to just,,live. But I can’t find people like them anymore It might just be because I’m selfish but I think too many people talk too much Like I never get a say in anything I’m always cut off or treated with silence, no one ever asks questions about what I like I feel selfish but I don’t want to just keep your conversation going My words aren’t matching what I’m feeling I don’t know how I feel

Kill me too?