I hate the way I am...( I don't hate me)... I hate how I am more mature than my older sibling. I hate how i'm the good kid and would shatter peoples thought of me if i did anything that seemed fun. I hate fallowing the rules. I hate how I cant speak up for myself when someone else is doing something wrong with me around. I hate how I fear the stupidest thing and cant find a escape. I hate all these things and yet I cant do anything about it, and that's what I hate more than anything. For the past 3 years I have been stuck in a limbo situation and its so suffocating I feel as if death is looking like a better option though I fear pain meaning I cant escape that way even if i wanted to... i love the world and some people in it but truly i don't think they love me same. sorry if this is too much if you dont care then just delete my comment but thank for even trying to listen to others problems ... im so stressed...

my friends kinda treat me like shit teehee except <her3 but they like ignore me all lunch and gym and it’s frustrating like i’m basically thr last choice unless no one else in our group is there they won’t talk to me

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