How have you been?

Good if I mean I've formed an eating disorder and now have even worse depression. My mother has been getting slightly better managing her physical hurting me part so meh

My mother has been yelling at me for not eating, but lately if I eat the amount of food I used to I get sick like throw up sick. I can't handle food anymore and its very stressful. The only reason I stopped eating is because my father told me I was fat so did my cousin and grandpa... So I started not eating in 8th grade and since then I haven't been really eating- I now weigh 150 something pounds somehow I have been gaining weight.

Well its been a while since I've been able to starve myself because of my mother watching what I eat. But lately my brother has been calling me big as in fat and stuff like that and its not helping me. My parents have told him to stop and to not let it bother me but He doesn't listen AT ALL he even gets aggressive if you tell him to do stuff.

I wish I was aloud to cuss, then I would cuss my whole family out and take our cat and run away from home as far as I could. I would find a new job and see if I would be aloud to stay at one of my friends houses if not then I would find a good home for our cat and sleep on the streets

I MISSED U MORE