I might have depression...
by:
seanacoletta 
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19.09.2020
18 comments
seanacoletta[OP]
19.09.2020 02:17
LinkI feel worthless everyday, I wanna slit my throat, I feel like I don't belong, I'm not happy at home, I feel like a screw-up, I can't sleep.
seanacoletta[OP]
19.09.2020 02:21
LinkI try to help others because I can't help myself.
Everytime I ask my parents for help, they say I'm over dramatic, sensitive, and then they call me a liar. They say their christians but where is that? Where? I gave up on christianity because of this. I only go to online and rl friends for help. If I ask an adult for help, they'll tell my parents and my parents'll demand why I didn't go to them first when I have for the past 3 years.
seanacoletta[OP]
19.09.2020 02:22
LinkI feel like nobody cares though
seanacoletta[OP]
19.09.2020 02:32
LinkBut then, my parents are ALWAYS right. They are the king and queen while I'm a lowlife. Even though I have the best grades, my parents think I'm the dumbest person in the world.
I try to make everyone proud. I try to keep peoples' expectations of me. I always fail, the failure I am
seanacoletta[OP]
19.09.2020 02:39
Linknobody cares
if i die, nobody will miss me. In fact, they would forget who I was. Even God doesn't love me. I'm a mistake, a birth defect
seanacoletta[OP]
19.09.2020 02:42
LinkMaybe if I die now, I won't be sad.
Maybe if I wasn't born, I Wouldn't have these thoughts
Maybe, just maybe, if I weren't a worthless piece of crap, I would be treated better.
:(((, I'm so sorry about the way your parents treated you. I can't believe how they call themselves Christians if they don't show any signs of it (the fruit of the spirit is love, joy, peace, patience, kindness, goodness)
(+faithfulness and selfcontrol), I care for you, even if we haven't even met and just got here.
and God loves you, and knows what you've been through, He forgives and blesses. The right thing to do is to please God and that's what you've been doing since you help others too!
Talent-wise, you're very good at drawing/animating and God also gave you the gift of wisdom because you get high grades at school!
Then why hasn't god helped me?
My youth leaders tell me it's part of my "plan" but shouldn't I get at least some help from it?
ohhh, well, maybe He is helping us, we just don't know how. God does work in mysterious ways and His ways are higher than ours. We may not understand why we're in this position, but He has a purpose
Sometimes his purpose is to teach or discipline, or to show his might, or to let people know about him and the like. Besides, 1 Corinthians 10:13 says "No temptation has overtaken you except what is common to mankind. And God is faithful; he will not let you be tempted beyond what you can bear. But when you are tempted, he will also provide a way out so that you can endure it."
You're welcome. I hope you restore your faith and remember that God loves you. You can talk to him in prayer too! :)
