I kinda miss William as a friend When we met we just had that,, Connection, you know? Like that warm feeling of comfort you get from your very best friend or when your the feeling when your mom compliments you and tells you she loves you and gives you a big hug I've never felt that way with even my best friends (No offense guys you're still my friends and ily platonically) I just want to feel that way cause it's a way I've never felt before with someone that's not my family I was always scared of change and when I met him he helped me do things I never imagined doing before and he was fun to hang out with He was so silly, goofy, nice, and happy all the time He was so special to me.. I just wish we can be friends again and I know that's selfish and I know I can't get everything I want but just this time I really want to fix things up with him..

When he asked me to be his girlfriend after his boyfriend broke up with him I remember vividly what I said in my mind. "Oh, okay. This should be easy, what could go wrong? I mean he's still my best friend, right?" Boy was I wrong But it gave this spark in my heart, he was like the Skeppy to my BadBoyHalo It was a new experience, a good one too My parents didn't know about him until something happened and I had a safe talk with my mom, not my dad And I told her about him and she took it very good actually, so did my uncle and dad too He was so great and I looked up to him, I still look up to him I know I'm talking like he's a god but he isn't because he has flaws just like everyone does, like how he does things without thinking first, or he can be very double sided sometimes, and that he moves on quickly but I'm not judging This pain in my chest is something I can't fix easily but when he came it felt like everything was easier and I wish I had at least some more time with him

We got along so well, we had everything in common and I just thought we would last forever but I guess that's the child side of me talking but when I was with him it was like I could express myself and I felt safe with him, like everything was right, like there were infinite paths. I kind of felt like that one person who wishes they were heather in that one Conan Gray song. I'm just glad I got this off my chest even though I missed a bunch of things Thank you for being here everyone, I'm just really thankful for you all giving me support and even for some (most) of you being one of my friends Everyone who's still here and got to the end of this thank you and I'm sorry you had to read this

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