TW FOR RAPE, SUICIDE, MURDER Got dehydrated a lot because I thought the water was poisoned Believed a singer was a traumatizing person to me and started arguments with a friend Believed that I was the reason one of my positive hallucinations 'died' Believed that my hallucinations were demons/angels for a while Got raped by a hallucination in a nightmare which traumatized me (this happened multiple times) Command Hallucinations told me to kill people or myself Loud whispering kept me from sleeping Extreme paranoia to the point where I was terrified to go outside Was mortified by fog because I associated that with a horrid hallucination Thought I was gonna get murdered by my hallucinations 30-60 minute long panic attacks and psychotic episodes Believed my medication was poisoned Hallucinations stood at the end of my bed which made me cry all night and not sleep for a while Body always thinks it's in fight or flight mode so it doesn't focus on remembering things and fo

-focuses on surviving