literally any sort of criticism to how she acts is a personal attack on her and she starts crying and its been this way for a long time. now that im actually trying to stand up for myself more its only gotten worse and worse. like.. so you can call me a mean bully after i told you many times that i was only trying to tell you that you were upsetting me but i cannot give valid criticisms without being a terribke person. i feel sort of trapped and it reminds me of how i was treated at my dads house because i wasnt allowed to go against anythjnhg my dad or step mom said because i was terrified. im not terrified of my mom, just angry. i know she cares but when this is what i have to deal with everyday plus getting vented to by a literal adult about relationship issues and how much she hates my step dad, i get really really tired.

the one time i suggested therapy she flipped out at me saying she WISHES she could but since she has to deal with everyone elses problems that she cant. she constantly makes me feel like a burden and then when i tell her that shes just like no u cant say that i do so much for you. am i wrong for feeling this way??? and everytime she vents to me i say "okay" because obviousky wtf else am i supposed to say and she just gets more upset like i dojt ****ing know what you want me to say anymore. oh on another note she'll also compare her childhood to mine and start talking about her abuse like ok????that does NOT make what youre doing to me and my siblings any better at all??? and i didnt even ask for you start talking about that? i was literalky venting to you because you get mad when i pretend im fine yet you do this damn near every time... like... what is even the point . nothing i do gets through to hr

ive akways been EXTREMELY gracious with my mother since she saved me from my father and doesnt physically abuse me or anything. but i cant keep this shiny halo over her head when these things keep happening over and over with no way for me to get through to her. i cant keep shining her in this amazing light when i myself dont believe she is that great to the people around her.

my step sister said that, too. ill probably look into narcissism more since my memory on many things is very foggy. thank you for ttaking the time to read this, it means a lot to me because i felt very alone and i feel a bit better now because you commented