i messed up, i know i did. But i just wanted to tell you i regret what i did, i am just afraid. You're right, i blame others for what i do wrong and for my pain when i'm the one who causes it. And the truth is, i'm just scared. I have a lot going on right now, one of the biggest things that are going on is im being threatened to be removed from my parents and placed in another home. i know, i've ****ed up in the past, too many times. You don't have to forgive me, but when you're ready to answer this, can i still call you my love? can i still have you as a part of my life? It's fine if we just stay friends but i need you in my life and i want to be in yours. i never mean to hurt you, and you know that. I love you, and that's never going to change. Ever. And i know that you know that. The reason you saw the good in me was because YOU changed me. Again, i feel so bad about what happened. If we get back together, i swear on my life nothing like this will ever happen, ever.

so when you come online, i hope you see this. ilysm. i will never stop. You make my life better. -emi

thanks for accepting hayden. i know i'm quick to say this but ilysm,,