I might die early. You’re probably thinking that I might jump off a building, hang myself or overdose. No, I am not. I might die because of medical reasons. My lungs are clogged. I can’t breathe properly. I have to lay in a certain position every night just so I can sleep nicely. No, I’m not doing this because of attention. I’m being serious. For the past few weeks, I’ve been having a hard time because of my body. My head hurts, my ribs hurt. Half of my body would need replacing at this point. I haven’t told my family about this. I haven’t even told my 2nd best friend this. I think that if I told her and my family this, I might be a burden. Would my family even take me to a doctor? Don’t get me wrong, I’m scared. I’m on thin ice. I’m only 11. You , the person reading this and I are the only people who know about this. I might die tomorrow, next year or whenever, really. So I apologize to everyone I’ve hurt emotionally. Not physically, because why would I punch someone? I hate my younger self.

If I could say something to my younger self then that would be: “don’t mess things up.” . Man, I plan on telling my parents this, but I just can’t, you know? How? How do I tell people face-to-face about this? Would they even care? Don’t pretend to care about me if you don’t. I don’t mind If you don’t say anything. I wanted to get this off of my chest. Thanks.

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