Bro You dont have to use caps that's just extra. If you tried someone could understand. If you'd stop being an over sensitive child and tried to listen the people who want to help they'd help. And I guarantee what your considering "suffer" is not actually suffering

Im sorry your going through that Trust me i know how that feels. Really the best thing you can do for yourself is try to calm down. Listen to music, take a warm bath, take a walk. Just try to take time for yourself and breath. Panicking is a normal go to with all that stress and pain but its not good for you. I know its hard to calm down and it may take a while but you just need to try. I dunno- watch cat videos on YouTube to try and cheer yourself up. You just need to try and stop the panic. Once you stop the panic things will get alot better on you. And as for the fighting- My mom dad and sister fight every night and I usually go to the room farthest from where they are put my ear buds in and listen to my music until they stop.

You'll be with her one day. But that day will not be today. She watches over you. She'll always be there for you. She may not be right next to you but she's there.

Your mother would want you to stay strong for her you know? Everyone has dark times. You can't let it get to you. One day it will all get better. Not right away but it will

At time YOU can be over sensitive. It's a normal reaction. There are people that go through alot worse yes. Atleast you have people here for you