Oh oh shit also like,,, a while back when a friend was like having,, thoughts about offing themselves I was having a real hard time with containing my feelings that week and like, I brought it up to them and they jsut like, played it off as if my friend was just, joking around or some shit and everyone has those thoughts and that it would go away eventually when they were clearly on the edge of their breaking point about to actually do it and And I snapped n shit