mmm not sure if I should post
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Creature[OP]
09.05.2022 00:20
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Creature[OP]
09.05.2022 00:20
LinkWhy is that the one day that I'm grumpy because I didn't sleep well the night before my Mom tells me how horrible I “always” am? I always try my best to be nice to everyone, to be patient, ect. I try to be perfect. And then what do I hear her tell my sister from afar? “She's just a mean teenager”. I´m never mean. I try so hard, and that's what I get? And this she said to my face, she called me so many names that just. They hurt, told me I don´t care, that I never care. Again, she pulled the “you don´t care” card. I hate that people tell me that. It hurts so much. They can't see how much I really do care, and claim I don 't, what do I have to do to people for them to see I care? She couldn't tell that everytime she talked to me I was breaking, on the verge of tears because of how her words affected me. She claims to have me all figured out but doesn't even know how much I care, how hard I try on a regular basis. I know it's Mother's Day. I know you're on your period. I know I'm supposed to respect you.
Creature[OP]
09.05.2022 00:20
Link But it's hard to have a constant respect towards someone who when you make one mistake claims that you don´t care and puts you down with everything in them. I know you hate the way I am, but trust me no matter how much you hate the way I am, I hate the way I am more.
I don't know how to keep in touch with people, in real life or even on flip. I see them socializing with each other, all my friends and me being excluded and it hurts. Then I remember that to the public eye I'm practically never on, taking large breaks frequently but ever since I made friends on here I come to check on them frequently, just don´t say anything because I´m unsure how to. I´m unsure of how they´ll react, how they see me. What if they don´t like me and by talking to them I cause them some sort of pain or inconvenience? I don't want to do that, why risk it. There's so many things I wish I could say, I wish I could just ask my friends how they feel about me. If I should act differently. If I should leave them alone, but I just can´t. Normal people don´t do that. I can´t let them see how much I think, how hard it gets. How do you even know that they see you as a friend? What if they see you as a person who occasionally bugs them? Once one of my friends told me that I needed to stop appearing without
asking, but honestly I assumed they didn't mind. I don't know how to do things like that, casually asking on a thing I wasn't supposed to be reading if I can join. The message wasn't meant for me, neatheir was the link. But I just want to see them, talk with them, spend time with them and make sure they're okay. How am I supposed to do that if I can't even figure out how to make normal conversation?
Every holiday my parents argue a lot. Especially on Mother's day. My Mom wants to feel appreciated by my Dad. All she wants is for him to take care of the food for today, she wanted him to go get some food and he couldn't even do that. She wouldn't leave it be and kept trying to get him too. They argued so much I decided to sleep so in my room so I don't have to be around all that negativity, woke up and they were still arguing despite having slept for so long.
Hey, I can relate to a few things, but I just want you to know that there are many people who care. And if they're annoyed of you, or you're unsure whether or not to talk to them or not, you'll always have me
If you need a friend to talk to, I can be there for you. I understand how you feel, especially with asking other people what they think of me, and continuing on from that. If it makes you feel better, I love the way you write, it's just like mine, you know? Great grammar, the spelling isn't abbreviated or anything, it's wonderful! Maybe I said too much? Sorry if I sound like a suck up, but.. well, I'll be there for you if you want :D
Hey thank you. Just like thank you for taking your time to type that up and read what I wrote. Honestly it's kind of reassuring knowing that I'm not the only person who gets worried like that. You said you'll be here for me, so if I need to talk about anything with you how do I contact you? Is there anything easier to use that I can contact you on?
Thank you for telling me you like my writing. :)
Honestly sometimes I feel like I have to use more abbreviations while talking to some people, because they use so many.
Don't worry, you didn't say too much in my opinion, and even if you technically did say too much, it's okay because I really don't mind it. I tend to do that, say too much, I've noticed.
No problem! I like reading about some things, and when someone is going through something, I want to try and help. Do you have Discord, or Instagram? (So you can contact me) And yeah, I love the font! :D
And hey, you should be able to talk however you want. You can use abbreviations only if you prefer it, or you're in some rush (That's when I use them, when I'm in a hurry). But other than that, I always talk like this XD
Aw, thank you :D You don't say "too much", I think it's great to express yourself in writing
I unfortunately do not have Discord or Instagram. I don't have a phone, and I use a school chromebook so those are both blocked. Yeah I use them a lot when I´m in a hurry too. There's a few things that the school doesn't block, including this, email, a coding website called scratch, and a bunch of pony games. (I mentioned all those because they all have a chatting feature).
You´re welcome! :) And thank you, I feel like I really needed that.
I can relate to *almost* everything you said, despite the fact that I'm not even a teenager, let alone 'a grown woman'. My parents argue too, sometimes, over the stupidest things like what my Dad ate, or what my Mum wanted to buy at the shops or even handwriting, which is really dumb. I, as well as my sister and my little brother have to deal with this, as well as being called names like idiot, useless, or being told that 'we'll never amount to anything in life' when we get less than 90% on a test.
So I understand some of your struggles.
But care for you, even though I have just found your page. And I'm sure that many people care about you though on this wretched but sometimes beautiful website.
I hope this helped. Have a blessed day!
Hey I know you're trying to say how you relate, and I appreciate that but like, I hope things get better for you. You're not even a teenager yet and you have to deal with all that shit? I´m at least 16, although now that I think about it, I´ve been dealing with them arguing my whole life. They actually argued more when I was younger, everyday there would be a big argument over something dumb. Like my Dad was looking for reasons to get mad at anyone and yell. You know what else, I'm the oldest so when they get like that I feel like I have to like, protect my siblings?
Thank you for caring for me, I care for you too even though I don´t know much about you. It did help, thank you. I don´t know if you´ll come back to read this but I hope you have a great day. You seem really sweet, don´t listen to any names your parents call you.
