a vent. they're not criticizing me for the fun of it, not to take advantage of me, it's because i shit on them or they want me to become a better person. it's not surprising i don't listen. i should not be able to vent. i am a spoiled youngest child with no SA or relationships at all, anything, any drama, is all my fault. anything that hurts me on FA is my fault, just a sad excuse for "trauma" or "validation". if my loved ones get hurt i cannot take that as something that affects me becauuse i'm lucky. i'm always lucky and instead of taking it as a privelege i take it as an insult, that other people should be lucky instead of ****ing being grateful for what i have. my parents aren't even divorced, and it's my fault about last year's drama, it's my fault i didn't trust the authorities bceause i thought they were homophobic or would tell my parents, it's my fault for hurting someone who had been hurting and RUINING my friends EVERY SINGLE ****ING DAY. he said it himself.

it was alright. you were good. you had struggles. i wish /you/ well! (and many others. a lot of these people are people i care about)