give me sm adivce maybe ?
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notanArt33st 
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08.02.2024
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notanArt33st[OP]
08.02.2024 12:01
LinkI'm in a really tough space rn
I don't feel like what I should be
I feel numb, out of this world w my head in the clouds
I feel mindless and I don't know what to do about it
notanArt33st[OP]
08.02.2024 12:02
LinkWhen I say this
I'm talking about my sexuality, my art, my future and probably my significant other in the future
I'm scared, really scared
But I know better than staying there
notanArt33st[OP]
08.02.2024 12:06
LinkWhen it comes to me gender identity, my preference
I think I feel masculine
I feel like I should be in the male category
But I also have a feminine side
A side where I want to where girly dresses and be there for other girls but the body I stay in doesn't seem to sit w me
I'm not saying I hate hate my body, I hate..
Being female
But at the same time I'm grateful
Because im sure I wouldn't be me if I was born male
So with my gender identity, I settled as he/it or he/him and genderfluid
I think it suits but Im still figuring it out
notanArt33st[OP]
08.02.2024 12:10
LinkI hate my personality sometimes
I don't like it
When I'm around my other two friends
I feel they hang w eachother more than around me, even when I'm there
I'm not saying it in a bad way, I'm saying that
They have much more things in common than I do w them
One of them is bi but,, her style seems so different from me
I'm in love w her, bit she's my best friends
Ha..! What can I do about that ! She's dating
Anyways
I'm saying my preference for girls
My personality
They all suck
I want to change, so bad
But I don't know how
And I can't talk about it with anyone so I'm just writing it on here hoping the right ppl will see it
notanArt33st[OP]
08.02.2024 12:11
LinkAND OBVIOUSLY no body will see this ! Who am I kidding ! Why did I write this ?
No I shouldn't say that
I kknow why I wrote this
I want to change..
notanArt33st[OP]
08.02.2024 12:16
LinkGod
No one's gonna see this
I feel so stupid for writing this hhhh
I'm just gonna keep this post up in case ! I reply even if it's been up for almost 2 hours ! I can't lose hope !
I do wish I could say something to help you but I know this isn’t my area, I’m kinda Cis and I know nothing.
Don’t take my words too seriously cuz again I know nothin on any subjects and I’m a borderline criminal so yk.
Uh...I think society’s expectations are what make me iffy of being the gender I am on rare occasions, yk them saying I’m too emotional, being called a sissy and stop doing this and that. God forbid I start crying man cuz imma die if dear old dad catches me. The endless assumptions. it really isn’t the though of being said gender it’s how I’m treated as it. Instead of trying to swap between identities I just build my personality and stick with it so people won’t bother and just say oh this person has always been like that. (Because I’m to lazy to put in the mental effort)
I have more hold on...
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It's nice to hear another person's perspective and I'm really trying to get advice cuz I'm still young
I can't just wait around
Waiting around is leading me to school graduation, I'll be in a new environment b4 I know it and I have to be prepared, even if it's just mentally
Your thoughts, even if it's about yourself helped and I can relate to the part where my parents may find out about this cuz I'm born from a Muslim country
I'm supposed to be devoted to Islam but I just can't cuz I feel like I have more to do
Like, I’m on the daily grind of building myself up to being just me and that’s that. I don’t need to be anything else to feel valid or anything ig.
Find a way to be comfortable with yourself and stay to what style you want to wear, don’t stop wearing dresses don’t give up anything. I’m prob missing the point completely because I’m not really questioning myself and I don’t know the ropes to genders so forgive me if I’m sounding insensitive anywhere, I don’t wanna judge and I don’t mean any harm.
Ofc! Ik I couldn’t do much so I hope you find a solution soon. And someone who can understand you better as well. 👍
hey, whatever you want to be gender wise, i'll be here and use it (we dont rlly talk but still) it can be confusing alot trying to figure out who you are gender or sexuality wise, it could take a long time to figure it out but i know you will get there soon
now i dont know about your personality but from the things i have seen, you seem like a fun and accepting person. now I hoped it helped a bit since im not the best on this stuff as well
Thanks for the support and I like accepting things
It's like going into someone elses world, earning their trust or friendship and all
It keeps me happy
anytime! I know it can be tough at times finding those things or changing things, but it will always end up good in the end