This is about my biological "mother" who sold me into sex as a kid for drugs and drug money. Had hit me till i was unconscious,Taught me to trust no one,lied to me,I took care of my siblings around age 4 because she was too drunk or drugged to do anything. She also injected me or gave me drugs to make sure they were safe for herself. mostly stuff like shrooms and LSD. Sometimes and think back and remember how horrible she was and wonder why i used to care about her so much. She taught me not to trust anyone,She taught me to fight and hurt others and she taught me that sex is love(which none of these should or are true). It's just unfortunate that some kids (like me) were put through this kind of trauma. It sucks and hurts so much. She never loved me or cared about me. She jut manipulated me into fixing her problems and trying to make me think she loved me. She doesn't know how to love. I recently cut contact with her and it is just so hard. I usually end up running back to her apoligizing. How do I keep away?