I love my life i love my lite i logebkygof

It ok i have skittles its ok itsok

My life is like a video game trying hard to beat the stage

Heres that school prohect i didnt finish https://youtu.be/VkfjuR-dXIs?si=nRv3rZLoZAsSyj8I

When i dont take mt meds i turn into 1p italy

My mom just scolded me again for not getting a job or starting drivers ed and that i do nothing for this family AGAIN like hey ok :) hey :)

She cant even remember when i spoke to her hours before shes on like 100 diff medications

My mom says if i "take care of myself" then i can make my back stop hurting so much. Then she says she doesnt care if my back hurts i still have to shovel when its winter because we all havr to do things that hurt. Then she gets mad at me for eating too much and then eating too little so now im just skipping meals a lot. Our dishwasher has been broken for a month and a half yet she is cobstantly telling me to just wash them with my hands which i cant because im sensitive to that and gloves make it worse. And then she says i havent done my chores all week even tho i didnt do them on one day this week. Idk anymore

She calls me a child when i go nonverbal and then yells at me for not acknowledging her when she is talking to me when i literally cant talk. She calls me childish when i go nonverbal so thats really awesome especially since she is certified in special ed teaching and things like that . She laughed at me when i wanted those necklaces that u can chew on so i could stop biting my nails because nothing else worked . My step only becomes a parent when he feels like it an is constantly on my ass about taking away my phone for literally no reason. He hardly gets off his ass away from his world of warcraft and plays that way way WAY more than i speak to him.

Step dad*

I honestly dont even think i can go to my friends bday party ill probably just stay home because if i ask my mom to order her presents i picked out she'll make me feel like a useless piece of shit again because she is always so busy with something else

It doesnt feel like they want me to care about myself it feels like its just something they can use to threaten to take all my stuff away because they know i can barely keep my room semi clean for a month

I cant even type anymore i type eevrything wrong i type the wrong words all the time and the wrong spellings of words when they have two meanings

Idk whats wrong with me

Imagine if my parents gently opened the door

Bro skittles are so good

My friend promised to take me to six flags this summer because i told them i never went but i dont even wanna see my friends anymore i just want to stay home and then my other friend asked if i wanted to camping with them and i said yes i dont want to anymore i think maybe i shuld isolate myself idk