everytime he asked for nudes id just start zoning out like crazy up until it was over

now i just hate the thought of any actual person performing anything sexual onto me, its quite embarrassing to say but the only exception is my f/os for some reason

theres a detachment from me and my body, guys i hate being seen in a sexual way i hate it a llot !!

everytime there was a request theres always a thouht in the back of my mind just going "ah so he wont like me anymore when i transition" WHICH IN RETURN CAUSED ME TO GO EVEN MORE INSANE

im PRETTYYY sure i pointed out in the past to him on how taking photos made me feel and how i wanted to stop taking them,, i might be misremembering i forgot

but anyways i felt bad for just randomly quitting so i kept on taking the photos despite how uncomfortable it made me

i hate sex guys

i wouldve fully stopped w/o feeling bad if it wasnt for the constant 'if you didnt want to do it then say so and dont have me waiting for it' ??????????????????? HELLO?????????????

I GENUINELY NEED A SECOND OPINION ON THAT CAUSE THATS BEEN BOTHERING ME THE *MOST* OUT OF ALL OF THIS

IS THAT NOT AN INSANE THING TO SAY OR AM I JUST CRAZY ????

hey guys lets pray they just

either NEVER open that forsaken link or just NEVER mention this at all

i mean i guess id be fine if someone brought it up in dms i just wouldnt say a lot if i being honest

dawg i cooked so hard w/ this drawing guys please like this i wish i could sned it to the server but i feel like itd be weird to tbh....