my grade are slipping I ****ING FRIEND DUMPED SW AND FEELS LIKE DIRT MOM INSULTS ME ON A DAILY MY STEP DAD IS HOMOPHOBIC RACIST AND SEXIST MY GRADES ARE SLIPPING SELF ESTEEM IS JUST N O -

MY MOM ALSO REFUSES ME THERAPY

In my life I’ve been through so much emotional trauma and my mom doesn’t do sHIT ABOUT IT-

even when I nearly got raped by a 13 year old boy It’s just Therapy who? Psychological help when?

(I was 7)

LAST YEAR I TALKED TO A COUNSELOR AND MY MOTHER YELLED AND GOT MAD AT ME CUZ I CONFESSED THAT I WAS SUICIDAL (at the time) AND THIS ***** GOT MAD

not only tHAT- But after months and months of trying to convince sw to get therapy, them hanging up on me and just taking all of the insults and lashing out, I told them to **** off and that I was done and I fEEL ****ING TERRIBLE. THIS IS WHY I NEVER GET ATTACHED BECAUSE IN TYE END THESE ****ERS WONT BE IN MY LIFE.

(The lashing out was when I was trying to tell them the StickBros aren’t real and telling them to get therapy)

LITERALLY, IVE DONE NOTHING BUT TRY AND HELP THEM AND THEY THINK THEY HAVE A RIGJT TO CALL ME A ***** AND TO **** OFF PUBLICLY WHEN I AINT DONE SHIT TO THEM? AND WHY DO I FEEL SO GUILTY AND WANT TO MAKE UO EVEN THOUGH I KNOW I MAD ETHE RIGHT CHOICE

it’s fine. I just bottle it up until it goes boom and now I’m having a mental breakdown in the school bathrooms after I finally cracked after another boy started demanding I “show him respect” and that I’m “nothing more than a woman”

we shall exchange life events. I’ll go first. My very first real best friend betrayed me in the third grade telling everyone I was a bully and throwing rocks at me, I was defenseless and passive so I hid in my jacket and for weeks she made a game of all recess throwing the pebbles and big rocks at me and watching them bounce off my jacket, +10 points if it hit my arm or leg, 20 for my head and if I cried I was called a baby.

If we go from the start, Parents divorced when I was two, never got to see them together so when the kids at school talked about their mommies and daddies, I was confused. My dad left for the oil field in the same year, and didn’t come back until I was 8-9. Barely knew the guy and was uncomfortable. His wife was the worst. I’d never been called “fatty” before, but it wa s the first time of many. I’ll get into them later.

Shit dude, sorry I didn’t know.. Let’s just head back to the school setting for me and not talk about all the bullshit with my step siblings. I slowly but surely kept getting called fat more often or hurt until I had zERO FRIENDS- Eventually it got so bad I almost became anorexic, so we moved. The whole fake friend thing happened there, the boy that I was friends with had taken her side with that and I made i speech or something idk. Either way, it convinced him. I’ve always been told I have a certain way with words. Moved again, more bullshit and I wasn’t interested in any boys and then I fell for SW the moment I met them, ya da ya da you know the sob story about that already-

ok gn