the murder drones trauma thing is really funny (at th time it wasnt and i was so mentally ill and delusional it is actually scary)

ive stopped ruining myself for others and im taking care of myself. 2023 me woud think this shit is not real, i never thought i would get any better but ive come really far

still a lot of things to deal with. i have to make a response to my dad. saying why i dont want to see him anymore. i just need to force myself to start writing it... but its okay . i hope people see me as a good person and someone they can rely on and trust. i want to help others and i want to make people happy and i want to change bad things to good things in the world

im still mentally ill but it is. getting better❤ i am very sorry to the people i may have affected negatively in the past i hope for a better future for all

ive been considering my future career and i think i might want to be a safety inspector for theme park rides!

ive been watching lots of accident analysis and ive done research on incidents that occur at theme parks and why they happen. many of the cases seem to be pure negligence of caring for the rides, limited staff training and keeping records up to date (or even keeping records at all, surprisingly.) it is very upsetting to see all of these problems being neglected and in the end causing incidents which injure and kill people. so i want to be the one to make sure that nobody is putting in the least effort possible when it could have peoples lives at stake!!!! coaster college is a great source for me since he operates rides and does in depth dives into the reports and court cases.