ouch, i know how that feels, buddy, and it is heartbreaking... but, other friends will support you and are there for you, too! sometimes, life just kinda decides to screw us up. //hugs i really don't know how to explain things that well, so of course i sound like an idiot saying this, but maybe sometime you'd be able to call them! and maybe meet up with them somewhere? i do that a lot, and it works. though, i am sad to hear one of your friends left.. it happens sometimes; life doesn't go your way...