So I'm scared,,, like scared of myself. I get so mad over nothing. Like one squiggly line and I'm cussing myself out. It's not healthy and I really wanna stop. I started crying over stupid things this morning and I literally NEVER cry. Not even when I broke my finger, even though I wanted to- I've just been so emotional and I hate it so much. I also feel alone. I don't have any friends- Like I do but they don't get me. At all- And I want to go to that party but I look at myself and think "I'd just ruin it like ew look at thiS" Worst part is,,, I've been trying so hard to be confident and I've been doing everything to help my mental/physical health. I feel like giving up. Not dying, but giving up on what I wanted to do. I wanted to get myself out there and be more social, I wanted to start styling my hair or something. In the end, I'll still be the dumb kid that sleeps in class. Everyone hates me- Like people joke about me at school and I can hear them you know?? Like I don't want to go back. I really don't-

ALSO I'm sorry for sounding like an attention whore I just needed to get it out-