im sorry i dont love enough its something that only certain people get and even though they cherish it they should leave me for the wolves. why wont you let me eat dad. only ****ing vegetables fr i sound like im complaining but if i ever try to eat something else he yells at me i eat the little bits of salad at school and leave the rest to rot when i get home maybe a bit of dinner but idec im pathetic i remind myself this daily so pathetic you scared half of your old friends away now your with the bad influences the ones who already vape the ones who already drink but there your kind of people ive become this heartless mindless person its felt like forever but it really hasnt been i dont deserve this world so i leave scars on your wrists knowing that i only live for one certain day that will come in 3 years i live for this day and only this day if it wasnt set then i would be here rn but wait there is more...

its horrible to think that one day you could wake up and your best friend is dead she has been trying to kill herself constantly now i dont want to leave her alone but i have to do my parents jobs and basically raise there children while they work my mom said she messed up as a parent to end up with me i must have some sort of condition she said that left me feeling numb and really no energy it kinda left me useless just dreading life but continuing to live for that one day my life isnt hard im just pathetic my friends say mine is well just bc my parents raise me differently doesnt make this hell but it is i dont feel safe here i get hit here im not equal here my "wife" wants me to come live with her but she lives in a different country😔 my mom said she wants me out of the house if i pull anymore shit she will kick me out i already have a plan im going to live with my friend maddie that i like... me not being straight has really changed life for me i stopped believing in god becau

Christianity makes no sense to me the bible was written by straight men thats what i believe 😔 and im toxic annoying and i try to be nice and just fall into this deep whole of self hatred and take it out on others. im going to die alone. if we ever reached a happy ending then the story ends right? the happiness always comes at the end the end of everything the end of anyone even caring because its over. i dont live for happy endings i live for the people not the ones surrounding me the ones who are here for me i love them all so much more then i will ever love my self and im sitting here living for people who will also never know i exist but still i would do really anything for 3 years to just pass already all i see is heartbreak, pain, numbness, and drifting apart in my future i cant control my emotions anymore ive started to hear voices nothing major its like im sitting alone and i hear someone call my name and there is no one there its scary im scary im scared

okay tysm ima talk more too

lmao its fine

this year started fine i got dumped and cheated on but i never loved them anyways so yea then i hit this downward spiral after that i only made bad decisions i got so emo i legit scared my old friends away everyone noticed something was wrong i turned to cursedness and it really changed how people saw me they saw the depressed cursed emo kid who is somewhat funny but we hide from her or she will force us into a cult i took pride into that my mom started to disprove of my new friends but they are my everything the only reason i will ever laugh ever even smile is because they were there sometimes they make jokes a bit too far i do too so its okay then my acc got hac ked and i felt myself crumble in my seat i couldnt breath right everything was falling apart and now i cant get back in and it seems as if the world is ending at least i still have carrot sticks tho there amazing rlly have helped me too i still think im going to die alone people at school say im going to die alone i t

*i think id love to die alone

and thanks alot

its laughable about how much ive changed this year people say ive lost all my innocence ive become a legit sin they also say random boys like me and its weird too😔 bc there the weird ones in a bad way my love sometimes feels unlimited and sometimes nonexistent ive lost all caring i told a teacher to kill her kids today teachers will yell at me and ill just walk away i find it hilarious for some reason then i feel so fat my online mom said im a stick but i dont believe her i started to gag up my food my mom took away my best friend i need her so much (@morgandied) i love her so much i miss my wife havent talked to her in a month i want to wake up dead this act seems to be working because i honestly care but at the same time i dont andallthosepeoplewhofakedepression it makes me sad because ive been going to therapy since i was 4 bc of some trama with my dad...

i wasnt supposed to happen my mom was raped and here i am my dad tried to kill me as a baby, beated me beated my mom he was an alcoholic mom left him got married to this other guy and he hates me hits me throws things at me told me im smart but sound stupid earlier bc i said idk i feel sick but im not i feel myself falling and laughing at myself because im so pathetic i cried because my mom said she hated greenday and mcr i also cried once bc i couldnt listen to mcr then i cry over other things but thats not the point i stay up til 2 am everyday i dont wanna sleep sleeping kills everything kills. 2020 is the worst year for everyone it kills i hope we honestly all die ngl most people dont but i do ****ing corona come kill me

thanks for the super hug:) i hate how i would love to die alone

i may not be but i feel so alone sadly i feel like the only real friends ive made are shadows and the only real enemy ive made is myself i havent truly lived this life why do people say that life sucks and are so afraid of leaving it im not afraid of death im afraid of living im not afraid of leaving this life im afraid of living it

and sometimes i just sit in my room and stair off into the distance my mom says i need to be more social she said she likes being the mean mom and she embraces it too um ima stop venting for today

that is why i moved to this acc

and i'm self diagnosed and i might be crazy _ _ \('-')/

ty! <3 ^^

ok ^^

So let’s see.. My ex told me to kill myself.. My best friend is in the hospital and she’s really sick and some of the doctors think she could die... I’m failing all but one of my classes.. I can’t help all the people I want and that make me feel like a failure.. another friend is super depressed.. My parents are expecting a lot from me... I’m trans and my teacher is gonna tell my parents about it and my parents are SUUPER religious.... And there’s a lot more but that’s I’ll Imma say for now :/

Alright :) And thanks