Her mom she she ****ing accused me of hurting kids I haven't even seen in my life just to protect her ****ed up ****ing daughter I should've said no **** **** **** ****

I thought being raped was normal in sex, she watched a bunch of it in porn, I'm ****ing surprised she didnt try what the men were trying in those ****ing videos, slapping those poor ****ing girls, they would yelp and cry at the mans touch it ****ing hurt **** **** **** ****

I ****ing hate this feeling I feel like my insides are rotting ugh it feels ****ing gross **** **** **** mmmmm

**** **** Rick **** **** **** **** why why why why why why why why why why why why why why why

**** **** why why why why

I ****ing feel her I can ****ing feel her mmm it ****ing feels terrible I feel so ****ing violated mmmmm **** **** why didn't I say no we gross **** me why why why am I such a ****ing screw up mmmm

Mnnnnn it feels so ****ing gross and imma have to deal with my little sis who's tablet is gonna die so she's gonna ask for mine which doesn't help my ****ing mental state mmmmm

I feel her fingers in me I hate it with every ****ing fiber in my goddamn body I hate it I don't like it it makes me wanna puke I hate her why did she **** up my sense of friendship and boundaries Mnnn,,

She was so gross icky mnn I hate her mm **** yumm **** **** **** I feel her so much I hate it I did it to her too I didn't want to but I did it anyways I was scared why did I do it in the first place mmmm

I feel so icky right now mmm **** I hate it please stop stop stop stop

I'm sweating so much haha mmm I'm on my period thus isn't doing well mmmm what is it with me and having mental breakdowns mmm

Mm I did it too I subjected myself to that shit I did it I did some ****ed up things too mmm I don't like what I did it hurts I hate it so much mmmmmm

I hate it so much mmm my head feels light now mmn

I hate her I hate her voice her her fingers her hands her eyes her hair every little thing about her I ****ing hate mmm I feel so ****ing violated just by remembering that she did stuff

Mmm I don't feel comfy talking about it but I don't feel comfy NOT talking about it

Nnn it was a weird position mmm she pushed her fingers in me I don't like it it felt weird mmm and I keep remembering that feeling and how it feels mnn it felt so odd and violating I hated it mmm

I'm I don't like it at all mm

Mm I hate it so much mnnn

I'm so tired but I can't stop thinking about it,,

For the love of god please let me sleep goddamn it,,

Duck **** **** something happened something bad bad umm um it was with a girl and its coming back to me and it hurts and I don't like it

Mmm,, don't be it was my fault I didn't say anything you don't have anything to do with it don't worry about it don't be sorry

I'm,, **** **** I love you so much Mnnnnn,,

Mmm,, we, she, **** uh so I was like eight when this started happening **** I'm such an asshole mmmm she was the same age she suggested so much things mm I hate it I wanna cry but I can't bc my little sis KS awake I wanna go and die in a pit I feel so icky I keep remembering her touch I hate it mmm I remember married touch also she got in on it rarely mmm I hate it so kuch I hate her I hate me I hate both of them I wanna die duck **** it was all my fault I could've said no haha why didn't I reject sooner nnn

Mmm **** it isn't super bad it just hit hard on my sensitive self mmmm I still feel her **** please tell me hoe to make it stop

Mmm say what idc what you say I just want her touch to go away I hate it so much

It was a girl named brooklynne she was my childhood "friend" that my dad forced me to be with

I think?? I know I've told pip

But if I haven't I don't want Beth to know that this shit happened mmm

Mmm she has her own shit mmmm I don't want her to have to deal with an even more ****ed up version of the screw up that is her gf mm

Nnn I love all of you but it doesn't help when my mom is like "lol you can't have fun and get your mind off of your past while talking with pip" when she has seen the effects of me and pip not having a walk

Mmm she's going through too much rn besides I wasn't getting my grades up she's a nice person mmm she just makes rational decisions

same,,

Ilyt hon