ive been referred to a clinic specialising in psychosis so that's fun

uhhh i relapsed one too many times and that's how my college found out i was not in the best headspace

it's not like ive been visibly unwell for the past year now

my ex broke up with their new boyfriend like i predicted and now they're running back to me

im not taking them back and i never will

ive been sober on alcohol for i think 2 weeks

i hope they're not trying to medicate me

i will very much just get back into my alcohol habits and overdose

i had a talking stage who started flirting with me first and genuinely treated me like the perfect princess i am i got blocked today after telling them about the doctors suspicions surrounding my mental health

ig being mentally ill scares the huzz away these days

i don't even know what i did wrong

i matched her energy so well and then after a week i just get constantly ghosted and met with stupid excuses for being left on delivered

it's not like she didn't keep flirting even despite all those excuses and she kept calling me so many pretty things that made me feel all warm inside

but then she just blocked me out of nowhere

like im sorry im starting to become sober after so long and im actually getting help for my mental state

harlow i miss you why did you block me for nothing

im still stuck on that

my ex keeps trying to call me but like **** off i don't want you anymore

i feel like im the only sane person anymore and everyone else around me are the people that have lost their minds

i just wanted to be cared about why did i get blocked

i miss being treated with care

like am i that unlovable that showing me even the tiniest amount of affection drains you that much

she could've at least given me an explanation as to why i was blocked

pmo pmo pmo i just wanted you to care