Ima be a free counselor
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VanillaStar 
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27.11.2017
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VanillaStar[OP]
27.11.2017 04:09
LinkTells me ur problems
But I think the thing is that I'm afraid of people. I mean, people say that sticks and stones may break my bones but words will never hurt me
Well
**** that because words hurt a lot
I feel like I'm being judged for being Bi
but i don't really care because I'm starting to feel more les than Bi
I have great friends
and A great girlfriend that I love so very much
but we're in an open relationship
so she has a boyfriend as well..
my main problem besides my person phobia thing is..
I feel like my girlfriends other lover is better than me
and I can't decide if I want to stay with my gf or break up with her, because she will be crushed and My best friend will be destroyed.
I don't know what to do..
Have you confronted her and her boyfriend about this problem in a calm manner? Confrontation may bring her into sight of this problem and you can all work on it together.
The sad part is that I sorta tried
but the worse part is that I'm too afraid..
Is she the type of person who is easy to anger? What types of things make you afraid to confrontation?
Well
she's not very easily angered by as far as I know. I've never angered her
The thing that scares me is that... she already once thought about breaking up with me
but... I'm more afraid to be heartbroken
I just feel like if she doesn't love me I'd rather be the one to break up with her even though... I wouldn't want to anyway.. I don't want to be sad I don't want her sad
I'm afraid because... I don't want to say it wrong or start crying while trying to find words... then get so many other people involved... because I'M the one who goes all out on emotion when angered or made upset
I don't wanna ruin anyone else's lives or start a fight between her boyfriend.. and then break up and not find another...
Maybe start just hinting it out more often, and more obviously. She'll catch on, and start questioning herself, and then she might realize the problem. Like she tells you she's gunna hang out with him on a day you were gunna hang out, put a little ":(" at the end.
But if I hint it out so much often what if I do it wrong or she never catches on? I guess my biggest problem is worrying about the future ;')
If she never catches on, it kinda must be brought to attention directly, but calmly. :)
I was gonna comment something but then it got too long and I couldn't type anymore w o o p s
the thing is
it's all one part
just lots of fear and more fear with some paranoia sprinkled in
like
a few years ago
it's just a constant nagging fear that everyone is judging me, along with a feeling that I'm actually being watched by something
I'm a really paranoid person, and I always jump to conclusions
I have anxiety so bad I was scared to talk to a counselor
but here on the internet, no one knows who I am irl, so I feel just a bit safer
I'm glad you feel safe! Have you thought of seeing a psychiatrist, are you diagnosed with anything, and have you had any trauma in the past?
no trauma, although I have learned not to trust family, which might have something to do with this, since my family strongly disagrees with my beliefs( I don't even have to tell them I already know they don't agree) I have been diagnosed with anxiety, and I have not looked for a psychiatrist, the thought of it scares me and I don't know why, I'd just rather not in my current situation
I see how the thought scares, you, it will really help though, the may put you on a certain plan that makes you less stressed! Also, a school guidance counselor shouldn't be feared to be seen! There are they to explain certain things, and make sure you are alright. You maybe should see them about your family being stubborn of the anxiety acceptance. I have bipolar disorder, so I feel different a lot, this guy helped me a lot on the anxiety side, his name is "Infinite Waters (Diving Deep)" he has a video called "5 Ways to Relieve Anxiety/Panic Attacks/Stress-How to Have A Lighter Heart... Feel Alive!" This should help you a lot, on that side, now let's talk a bout that feeling of being watched.
as I said before, I am a very paranoid person. I just imagine monsters I know could never exist, and I get scared easily at the thoughts of them. I know there is nothing there, but I always feel the need to look behind me whenever I am alone. When I'm with people, I don't have this feeling, but if I'm even in a separate room, I feel like something else is there, even if I can see that the whole room is empty, I just get this weird feeling that something is just out of my line of sight
Alright, let me do my research about paranoia before I tell you wrong information. :)
Alright let's start off by learning how to determine danger and paranoia, and how to cope. I want you to start up a list about how you think you can differentiate between imagination and true danger. Put this list somewhere where you can get it anywhere, okay?
hey so idk if this counts as a problem but Im RUNNING OUT OF ORiGINAL JUice(Mountain Dew) aND I STIll HAvE Like- 10 MorE PEOPLE TO DRAW PLs HELP ME i CANT THink OF a FunnY ENOUgH FaCE TO PLASTER On ANOTHER PERsONS HeLPLESS OC
ya thats it sorry for wasting your time i bet you were expecting something serious hAHAHAAH dude you know i'm too stupid and wasteful to comprehend ''SERIOUS'' LIKE wHAt doES THat EVEN meaN HAHAHAHAH uh this is too long sorry sorry
well
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its not that i'm sad or anything i just can't think of a funny enough face tO PLASTER On ANOTHER PERsONS HeLPLESS OC haha but you don't have to help me dude i'm just being an attention seeker
and make one look like they've seen hell and michael from vsauce singing fireflies
You just want attention! You don't want my heart! Maybe you just hate the thought of me with someone new!
Yeah uh here's mine ( I trust you )
Well I've always have felt left out with my friends... ever since seventh grade has started we've started to grow apart... and everyone had snapchat and instagram and talked about when they want to go out for lunch and didn't ask me... ( note I don't have any. Social media) and I've always felt left out and they don't bother to tell me things anymore and I now have new friends who actually talk to me and tell me stuff and go out for lunch with...(occasionally XD)
WOAH THAT WAS ALOT TO TYPE! XD
But I honestly don't care anymore and they asked me in Halloween to go "trick or treating" with them ( we barely did) and I now feel sorta included.... 030
Good description! May I ask, have any tried to reconnect with you, or have you tried reconnecting with them?
Well I've tried to connect with them... we still talk to each other but not much anymore like 2 years ago... we would always talk, and I've connected with a few during the summer
Hmm, but these friends you don't really care if your friends or not?
Well you see I do care because ever since 4th grade they were my first friends. I was new and incredibly shy... and yeah I do care because we all have a relationship with each other...
You are honestly a great listener.... I'm actually really glad to get this off my chest...
Like I said Halloween night I was the one wondering who's going and we did go to this boys house ( nothing happened xDD we all just played manhunt) that night I felt happy and yet nervous ( it was my first time with friends alone)
And girls in my class START drama and that's something I'm not wanting to be included in xDDD
Lol, well truthfully, I think you need, stronger friends who can relate to you on a higher level, but still keep those friends, it's just they won't really be as close.
Alright... Thank you so much sincerely for listening! *Hugs tight* and I don't know what to say it honestly feels good because I kept that in for a long and it feels nice to get it off of me so... thank you!!! <3
My usual therapist is my doctor xDD but she's really nice
Counselor! Counselor!
I saw Kokona-chan smoking cigarettes!
O h w a i t
Yandere-chan: *stabs both 37 times in the chest*
yall aren't my targets but I'll kill yall anyway *le shrug*
Yandere chan: *then shoots the counselor with a shotgun*
U say nothing bish
Thank you for bringing this to my attention. This kind of conduct will definitely harm the school's reputation. I'll have a word with her later today.