like ilove my friends but ohmy god. god forbid im sick and unwell for one day ??? because everything falls apart when im gone. what is wrong withyou people can you please take care of yourselves.

Actually during 2024 I had 4 people I was extremely close to try and off themselves. I don't know if anybody knows this but thiss behavior !! makes me not want to have friends. I love so so so much. Ilove the people who are in my circle but if another persontries to take their life I will actually crashout

im likr dangerously close to doing it anyway. Like idk today . coming backto whaticame back. to . proved that keeping people at arms length isthe best for me. too many people rely on me to keep them alive and I want to help so bad because ofsoem weird complex i have but im !! worn thin guys !! hey !! hey im worn thin!!!! the rubber band??? you're stretchin it !!! you're stretchin the rubber band its gonna snap!!! hey pal it'll snap soon!!!

HUURGHHH IM NOT YOU RMOOOOMMMM IM NOT YOUR MOM IM NOT YOUR MOMMMM IM NOT HERE TO TAKE CARE OF YOUUUUUU I WANT TO HAVE FUN AND BE AN ANGSRY TEENAGER TOO STOP TREATING ME LIKEYOUR MOMMM I DIDN'T BECOME OBSESSED WITH PSYCHOLOGY TO BECOMEYOUR THERAPIST. I GIVE OFFHANDED ADIVCE BASED OFF HYPERFIX RESEARCH AND YOUTHINK THAT MAKES ME A PROFESSIONAL 😓😓

yeah itslike. hard to find a time to tell somebody who is suicidal thatyou don't want to take careof them anymore because that's like pulling out a rug of support from under them. I don't want to hurt somebody just because im exhausted