the way i feel is im just a stupid blob who does nothing, and suffers from nothing, yet is just ungrateful and sad anyways. if i ended it all i wouldnt cause anyone pain. i try to fix it by doing work, but i cant do it, theres no reason, no point in trying when i know ill fail.

Wow this is a vent nvm

the whole reason i want to be in a cartoon world is because theres actually reasons to be happy. cool characters, nice characters, a world where i can actually be happy and do work, instead of being this blob.

im just stuck in a loop of be lazy get sad that im lazy try to do something cant because im sad gets lazy because im too sad