my feelings, i dont even know. I dont know whats wrong with me. i always run away from my problems. When i cut everyone from spm off 2 years ago, it was because of the pill incident. I did a stupid thing and i needed to vent, i didnt know how to control my feelings. and so i told them, i thought they would help. they didnt believe me. i dont blame them to be honest. but i was so scared, i thought they would leave me, so i did it before they can. i abandoned everyone of them.

thats why i wanted to leave this site. i tried to cut everyone off, and i ended up losing some lovely friends. so much has happened these past few weeks. i dont want to be alone.

i think im overreacting

i feel betrayed by one of my bestfriends. holy shit, i feel so ashamed. i feel upset and angry, and lost.

i lashed out on someone i cared a lot about. and he hates me teehee uwu >w<

i always make these stupid mistakess

i want to run away from everyone and start fresh.

but then again i'll always hurt people

but

it'll all be over soon

this is just a bad side of my life. bad things are necessary to have good things. ill find someone else.

i want to forget abt his existence

i want to hate him

i do but i dont

an d then again im a burden to my family uwu i should kill myself tbfh but maybe it'll get better