the only way ive ever made things better is distracting myself and now its not working and I dont know what to do and there is noth8ng I can do and I just want to pour my insides out I feel sick and I hate it I feel so sick because of this all the time and I cant stop it anymore its just all the time all the time no matter what I do

and I cant stop my thoughts snd they just keep coming back to more things finding more things to be upset about all at once finding everything it can and I just want to stop everything I want to go back before any of this I just want it to stop but it wont it hasnt for days now I cant work I cant draw I dont want to eat i dont want to do anythign I cant do anything I want to go to sleep and foregr about everything and not have to wake up i just want to go to sleep I want to sleep I dont want to be here

Im getting sonmad so easily and Im such being such an asshole and Im completely useless Im gonna fail again I havent been able to do any work and I just want to stay in a hoel i dont want to go to school again I dont want to go to school I hate it so much because I apparently have no problems and I just "need to try harder because Im so smart if I tried I coyld get the work done 🙂" but no one knows just how much im trying I just cant I cant I cant do anything anymore I cant focus I cant read a simple quetion and u derstand it I can barely focus on a piece of paper I just cant do anything anymore i cant stand be8ng at school

everyone thinks school is everything they think its the only thing I have to worry about so what else could possibly be so distracting I cant stand it I cant stand anyone or anything anymore

I just want to go to sleep and not wake up just go to sleep and stay that way I really dont think anyone would miss me no one relies on me Im not an irreplacable spot in anyones life I could go without bothering anyone too much

Im just getting more and more dependant on others I can barely function I dont want to do this I dont like being here