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16.09.2019
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unluckybones
16.09.2019 23:14
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milk-tea-arts[OP]
16.09.2019 23:26
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ok so first things first
im kind of a teachers pet
im the honors kid that no one talks to due to how quiet and antisocial they are and tbh i dont blame yall,, im pretty boring irl tee hee hee
anyways
im usually the first one to present and the first one to raise their hand for literally everything like the weirdo i am and like,, i never talk unless i have something to say,, so like,,, i have no friends lmao
and i had to present today in my science class and like,, everyone was dead quiet when i spoke and it made me really self concious like,,Ha are they thinking about how im a lil nerd or something? and when i was done, the kids were clapping for me even tho it wasnt even a big presentation that we were supposed to clap for and the teacher was smiling and i was just there? it was kind of weird
one of the kids after class went up to me and said,, his exact words, "i have no idea what you were saying half the time but it sounded really smart" and im not really sure how i fell about this whole thing tbh
and its like,, no one talks to me unless they want to copy my homework or ask me a question and im just kind of weird about it
and whenever i try to talk to my other classmates, they just dont register waht im saying to them sometimes but im incredibly idiotic when it comes to talking to other people so im just not sure how else to explain myself?
and the peolple that ask me about the classwork and stuff are trying to get to know me but im just not sure how to talk to people normally? like whenever i talk to anyone irl im really polite and well mannered to people as if theyre an authority figure and then they respond like were best friends and we already know each other and its just so strange to me
its like the only people that i actually talk to are the teachers and the other adults at school and im just trying to be a normal kid by joining clubs and talk to other students like everyone else but im just not really all that sure how im supposed to do that exactly
i really try to talk to people during clubs and i try to talk to people during lunch but everyone is just really loud and scary so i just hang out with this blind kid in one of my honors classes because hes pretty quiet so i dont have to say much but if im not with him then im just in the class with my teachers like, hi i dont have any friends and i know that i have over 100% in your class but can i come to lunch tutoring? yeah ok thanks
hue hue hue i think thats it pretty much
so basically
to sum it all up
im a smarty pants uwu and everyone around me other than the teachers scare me and im so CooL nO onE uNderStanDs Me !111!!1
Wow. Throw a hydro flask at them and be done with it the next time they ask you for homework
okay but im not sure if you have a blind kid to hang out with uwu
oh ok i thought you meant about the whole thing lol
nvm sorry m8
i dont understand you because im a ****ing dumbass and hate presenting and hate being social despite having a clique of my own.
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i will be your friend in flipanim UuU
When youβre a dumbass and your extremely loud because you thirst for attention because you think that THAT is the way people show affection and you crave affection because you've never really had someone that truly loves you.
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Oh and when you text someone and they donβt reply in the next 5 minutes so you start freaking out because they usually reply right away and you think something bad happened or they hate you but in actuality theyβre just busy and canβt talk. Or they actually hate your guts.
right? if someone doesnt respond to me in the amount of time it takes me to refresh the page im just like ,,, oh ****,, do they h8 me? tee hee hee
i wouldnt say im a teachers pet but im highkey perfectionist, straight 100s kinda kid that cares too much about everything;; i dont have any close friends irl but im working on just being friendly to people,,? its definitely difficult to find 'your crowd' of people but joining clubs is usually a good way to do that because that gets rid of most of the obnoxious kids;
it must feel really frustrating to feel so disconnected from other people hhjkdh i will offer all the support and self confidence i can aa
ilysm bb here's all my support for you
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I used to be smart and stuff and now im not so much anymore- I am quiet in most my classes, minus the ones i have friends in, but it doesnt even matter anymore. At this point in school we all follow unwritten rules and we have invisible respect and ties. Being smart and a teachers pet isnt a big deal, it doesnt make you weird either. You have something alot of people wish they had themselves, take pride in it. I totally understand what its like to have people only talk to you when they want to copy hw or whatever and it SUCKS. but i always remember that we all hate school and just trying to get by. Things will get better for you, and I believe and support you!
K. So. Uhhh..
I FEEL very dumb. All the time. But I'm an English honors student and have A's in everything but Bio bc the teacher doesnt do her job????
Anyways, I kind of half feel the disconnection from people. I have social anxiety, so even though I do have friends, sometimes that little voice inside my head tells me I dont. And it kinda sounds like you may have that problem too. Just... find someone you like, and hang out with them! If you're happy with only a few friends, then that's great!!! Your happiness is the most important thing. :)