Me changing my personas every two days

Believe it or not I had a voodoo doll and a spirit idea before this and now I’m using incense and the smoke from it

Idk why now I have two characters each for my personas

https://youtu.be/DHZAUtuP9oU?si=Xs-0WWvAbYjWbxn8

Has YouTube been lagging for ya’ll? Cus I was trying to listen to music and I actually got frustrated because the videos kept buffering and I gave up

I can lowkey get how ppl think I:m a girl on here cus of how I draw my personas but i present them mainly fem because that’s how I look irl and I draw highly fem characters I’m not one to make a fuss when ppl misgender me I mean it happens everyday but if your unaware I’m a trans dude so keep that in mind

WHY WHY YOU HAVE TO MAKE A RECORD BOUTME

Inhaleable but I don’t know if people can get high off of incense but I guess it can be used for aroma therapy

I usually down play my character designs because I have seen others that are just as or more intuitive it means a lot you bring that up and praise it specifically because I honestly don’t know if I’m doing good or not 😭

Last week I was thinking about taking a break or quiting art actually

But then I decided I didn’t want to be miserable 😭

Art and music are like the only things I can use to cope I’m just gonna have to live w it

I never used ad blocker I tried but gave up after two minutes I do do nitro discord commissions IF your ever interested cus I don’t have any other way to get money online- i actually have some wild stories from starting commissions like one dude harrassing me cus I wouldn’t draw his char naked 😭

So BASICALLY this dude in a server I was in asked if anyone can draw characters w big titties and I jokingly said yeah I can but then it got serious and bro was being genuine and he told me he would send me nitro if I did it And I was like yk what whatever everyone has different bodies sure I’ll do it so I said yeah So a sketched out the drawing And when I mean sketch I mean lineart and everything is done it’s just not colored or shaded yet And btw it’s literally 10 dollar nitro for a full body colored art from me right So I send it to the dude.. and yk what he says MAKE THEM BIGGER?

And I was like bro what.. because TO ME I don’t like giving girls the one piece build okay- it’s just not what I like to do when drawing my girl characters But I was like whatever okay so I make them bigger and send him the updated version AND HE ASKED TO MAKE THEM BIGGER

And I was losing my mind because the way this woman looked was so stupid and dumb but I made them even bigger And then sent it And yk what he finally said okay that’s good right?.

Then he told me to draw her NAKED

And I was like BRO I’m 17 it would literally be illegal and wrong to do that

And he said he was 15 and that it was okay Then I was like NO I’M NOT DRAWING IT AND HE WENT TO THE DISCORD SERVER AND TOLD EVERYONE I WOULDN’T DRAW HIS CHARACTER NAKED and everyone in the server said Stfu no one cares And then he went to dms and begged me and was harrassing me and I said no And that I just wanted my nitro and to finish the drawing WITH CLOTHES. P

And yk what he does He says that 10 is 15 where he is and that it’s so expensive and I say bro just ask someone else to draw your character naked And he said that it costs 60 dollars from other ppl And I was like bro please I just wanted to do a commission idc abt your financial situation And he says okay I’ll hit you up when I get the money

Month passes

I see him in the discord server and he spots me and says DRAW MY CHARACTER NAKED AND I ASK WHERE MY NUTRO IS AND HE SAYS YOU DIDN’T DRAW HER NAKED AND I SAID I’M 17 I’M NOT DRAWING HER NAKED and he got banned cus he kept harrassing me

I blocked him and deleted the art of the character the end

I only spent a hour on the art no big deal ( the mental scars are still fresh )

It’s okay Atleast I had a good story to tell my friends but after awhile I did get someone who commissioned me who was super nice it was sobering they asked me to draw there two characters having subway together

there’s so many videos on YouTube of artists talking about ppl and there crazy commission stories