**** **** **** **** **** I HATE ALL OF IT PLEASE END IT

Please.. I wanna close up.. I don't want anyone to feel weighed down with my pain..

END IT.. PAINLESSLY TO OTHERS Please.. I beg

I will ask and ask.. I will beg as much as possible.. please give me others pain..

ALL IVE EVER BEEN IS IGNORED AND LEFT BEHIND DAMNIT AND NOW THAT IVE FINALLY FOUND PPL WHO CARE.. IM NO LONGER ABLE TO OPEN ALL THE WAY UP..

....what's it like being stressless? Happy? Free? Unbounded? Light?

..I'm pathetic.. I'm a pathetic waste of space and no one can help..

I'm pathetic bc im a crybaby.. bc i can't go a day without speaking to my friends.. bc I'm not even close to independent.. bc im nothing like what I act like..

IM PATHETIC BC I MAKE EVERY THING ABOUT ME UNINTENTIONALLY

BC IM UNCOMFORTABLE EVERYWHERE

I can't handle the pressure.. I always feel like i must hold the weight of the sky and I can't help it anymore..

Then again.. what if this is my punishment..?

If it is.. then I understand.. before I came here I was NOT a good person

So ig I deserve it

But.. I do.. I've hurt too many ppl on accident

Both.. I hurt ppl everyday..

Wether it's my family or my friends, or sometimes someone idek.. I ALWAYS hurt someone.. it's like a curse upon me

Then why does it ALWAYS happen? Every time I leave my room.. every day I exist again..? Every time I speak?

Idk either..so I don't expect anyone else to.. I just.. I can't take it.. sometimes if I don't hurt someone else.. I end up hurting my heart bc I feel my day didn't exist.. my mind is too ****ed up at this point I'm surprised I can make sentences ppl understand..

I'm a scared, fragile, small, weak, crazy person who hides behind a big strong mask..

And now I sound like a attention seeker dammit

You can say it, no one will judge

I.. oh.. Well ur family- (no offense) is kinda rude Ur 'Friends' are clearly idiots to ignore you ..

...There are so many reasons that disagree

Well thank you then..